The First Weekend

'Twas a mixed weekend I had yesterday... In fact, it was the first weekend I've had since the beginning of the year believe it or not, because I've actually been working every Saturday and Sunday in January. Deadlines are tough, and there always seems to be something left but thank goodness everything seems to be winding down slowly.

So anyway, I got to go for cell on Friday night. Visited Chee Chee's cell for the first time ever since she moved on from the youth ministry and since she had asked me to go several times but I never made it because KL jams are killer.

Oh, my new number 1 pet peeve are traffic jams. They used to be quite high up in the first place, but seriously, getting caught in a standstill only for traffic to suddenly flow smoothly some 5 kilometers down the road just pisses me off so badly. For starters, it's wasted time and secondly, there wasn't any good reason for it in the first place. Just douches waiting till the last minute before attempting to cut four lanes to reach their destination perhaps? The LDP interchange especially is a sour point for me since it's almost always perpetually jammed (unless I come home at 1 in the morning heh).

So anyway, the dynamics of the YA group are quite different from that of the youth though that is hardly unexpected. It's not as noisy for one and the topics of discussion are entirely different if compared to that of the youth. It's good to hear Chee Chee's word though, it has been a long time since I've last sat in one of her cells.

Hit Melur after that, had good conversation, good food and good service for once. If you've ever been to the USJ17 Melur, you would definitely know that the service there is utter crap, but we had this young waiter who was actually quite efficient. Suzanne certainly thought so, praising him loudly to us all in front of him as he took our orders haha. Nothing like a little encouragement eh?

After Melur, I dropped by USJ 5 to visit Adrian, who I didn't even realize was around. Turns out that he was in Beijing for most of his summer holidays. Now, about Adrian... I seriously have nothing but the utmost respect for this guy. He's nice, he's good-looking and as it turns out, he's also quite well-off. I definitely rate him as one of the most eligible guys I know around haha, if not the most. And no, I remain very much 100% straight; it's just that I don't mind giving praise when praise is due.

So anyway, hung out with him, Hon Ming and Nat for awhile and played Cluedo. Wasn't much of a competitive game though, I was cheating outrageously the whole time. Cluedo is actually very easy when you know what to do and what to look for... The funniest thing happened during the first game when Nat won by doing nothing because all of us guys went and tried our luck. We had to though, because we had the character and weapon in the bag with only the place remaining...

Hit the sack soonafter and went to work early on Saturday. Had a half-day before heading to Parade (despite being in 1U at the time) and had lunch with my mother before doing some CNY shopping. It's kinda frustrating when your favorite brand doesn't have your size, but oh well, I still managed to get some new stuff for CNY so all in all it wasn't a wasted trip.

Afterwards, treated the Siows and Sunny to dinner somewhere along the NPE. I don't know the name of the restaurant but the food was phenomenal, especially the seafood petai platter. Had a long talk after that about almost everything under the sun... I really appreciate opportunities like that these days, when you can just talk the whole night away with like-minded friends.

A very good Saturday, followed by a somewhat more mixed Sunday. I was quite anal during church, despite this being the first full church meeting I was able to attend since commencing my employment with KPMG at the beginning of the year, because some things happened that I didn't think too much of.

I'll close off here because I'm tired, it's 1 and I have work tomorrow. And also, after thinking about it, nothing much really happened on Sunday anyway heh.

Till the next post to remind you that I am actually alive.

Just Because

When I was younger, I watched Moulin Rogue and went 'What the hell is going on?' The second time I watched it however, now a tad older and wiser, I just found it brilliant. It was wildly entertaining, going from erratically brilliant to moodily melancholic within minutes of each scene.

This is actually quite belated, because I actually watched this show with Hon Ming on the last Saturday before I started work but I've just been remembering the song for some reason and just thinking that I'll like to sing it to my wife at my wedding.

Odd thoughts certainly, considering that I don't even have a girlfriend and I'm already thinking to marriage but I suppose that's always been the way I've looked at things.

I've liked many girls, enough to take a second look at them but somehow there's only been one of them who I actually thought enough of to actually mention it to her, although at that point of time and given the circumstances I really wasn't expecting anything anymore. The only other girl to whom I confessed my admiration tricked me. I still remember that incident... that bloody Crush777. I was young and gullible then, now perhaps a tad too cynical and disinterested.

But then again, that's all it ever was...a crush. I was but one of many to fall for that one person, and certainly not the person who invested the most in that person. I actually never planned to get a girlfriend in college because it simply wasn't economical enough. I earned a small allowance which was enough to cover my own expenditure (with much scrimping and saving), what more a girlfriend's considering that I am quite traditional in my thinking with regards to BGR relationships.

Now that I'm working though, I wonder whether I'll ever find the time. Heh.

So many girls I liked... So many of them I gradually became friends with, but never anything more. There was of course her, who I liked for 5 years but could never make up my mind whether I really wanted anything more. I even became such a good friend to her that she would tell me about her own crushes, which was something of a surreal moment at times but I think what attracted me most of all to her was actually the fact that she was very much like me in many ways. At least I felt that way, now that I look back at those days.

Then there was a college friend of mine who fit a lot of the criteria I liked in a girl, except for the one glaring fact that she wasn't a Christian. *sigh* I'm sorry, but I will never ever consider a non-Christian because that's just the way I am; it just isn't fair to progress in a relationship with someone when you know it cannot go further if she doesn't accept your religion, and worse still, if she accepts your God just because you want her to, not because she wants to do so herself.

And there were two girls... One when I was very young, another in college. I liked the looks of them, I... just liked many things about them but then again, so did my friends. There is this one thing about me--the attraction I may have towards a girl gets muted quite severely the moment I discover a close friend shares the same feelings for that same girl. I just can't look at them the same way again, at least not in the way I would have before. Another one of my strange beliefs maybe, but I definitely prefer to have two friends than only one, not matter how close I may be to 'the one'.

And lastly, there is this one girl who never fails to confuse me with exactly how I feel about her. Seriously. I can't make my mind up about her. It's like investing in high-risk fast moving markets -- the stock price can hit new peaks every so often only to plunge into a deep recession the very next minute and it's rarely ever stagnant. Meh. When to buy shares, when to sell, when to short sell... %^*%*&^%

All right, I'm sleepy now. This post didn't really serve any purpose I know, but I suppose that I needed to update about something since I haven't blogged for a long time.

~ I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I've put down in words... How wonderful life is, now you're in the world...